well, its been a LONG time since Ive been on here. Mainly, cuz I forgot this whole site. but a lot has happened. I am now in a healthy relationship with the best guy in the world and since he doesnt have one, I can gush about him here without pain of embarassment.Not to mention, Sue doesnt have one eiather, so I can actually bitch about things. First things first. I have moved. I am no longer at Betty and Teds due to an huge disbute leaving me without a bed of my own. so Now I have a twin and gay ass head board which rattles every time I freakin move.Im still with my mom even tho Im 18 and desperatly wanna get away from her. Im trying tho.
I dont talk about my first time, cuz the guy who did it was really bad. and the guy who I cuddled with ended up being a criminal. I went on to date this guy named Ray. He was abusive and everytime his hands were around my neck it was sually to watch the air excape from my lips. I ended up cheating on him mainly cuz he kept telling me I was cheating, Which I wasnt. So I ended up kissing Carlos. Yes, Carlos. I broke up with Ray once he decided to Call my mother a cunt for not letting me go to a stupid concert. I didnt ant to go anyways, but everyone in the car heard him say it. After that, I ended up getting together with Carlos's best friend Nick. Whom of which, my mom caught me and him putting our clothes on. needles to say, he was gone. and I was no longer able to see Carlos for a month. OR Nick. eventually, we met up again thanks to Carlos where we did it again, but this time at HIS house and my mother still doesnt know. I spent the next 3 months alone. thats when I met him. In june, I was sitting at my dinning room table drawing and waiting for Becky to get online when all of a sudden a window pops up on my screen. I jumpped up and thought it was her only to realize it wasnt and I had to accept a message from someone. I was ok. Cool you know? meeting a new person. thats why Im on here right? and through all this, carlos had gotten married to a girl hed known for 2 months. I was depressed and tired of white men. But this guy seemed cool. not to mention he was flirtting. I thought a little harmless flirting wouldnt hurt. We ended up talking for 8 hours on line. The next day I was dragged out to Navy Pier with Brandi. Not a big deal, I had fun. But my mind kept wandering back to this no named guy on AIM. I got home and immediatly signed on. and there he was. He said he ad been waiting for me. and he said it non stalkerish. SO we talked even more. I found out his name. Wayne Allen Gray. But he prefered Allen. so that night before he signed off, he asked for my number. we still thought it was weird since we both usually talk to people in other states, that he lived like 5 minuets away from me. That night, we spent 7 hours on the phone. we talked again the next day on line and talked another 6 hours that night. that night he asked if I wanted to hang out on Saturday. I said yes. So the next few days we had been talking. Finally Saturday came around. He ran up my porch With his friend Pete. Immediatly when I saw him, He wasnt my type, but there was something about him. I knew he was gonna be the one I fall in love with. I mean, I had been inlove before, but this was different. I knew it would be different. They met my mom and we went off to his friends house where I met Petes gf and bro. We went to petes gf (esha)'s room and watched movies and talked. On the way TO eshas tho, Allen kissed me. On the way him, we made out. and it was like we had known eachother for years. I was like to lovers who had been away from eachother for months finally seeing eachother again. Well, I got home and went inside and the minuet HE got home, he called. What kind of guy would do that?? The next day he started a job at a candy factory. That night/day of sunday/monday, at 3:40 something, we were dating. we met families soon after and his family accepted me. Mine really couldnt care less only cuz they were waiting for him to pulll some crazy shit like Ray and Nick. August, he told me he loved me. we forgot about it but knew it, butit was never said again untill September. We had gotten into a fight and As I was storming out of his basement to leave he caught me and told me he loved me and He kissed me. we both had tears in our eyes whether he'd admit to it or not. The minuet I got home, (he had timed the time from my house to his) he was calling me. My Family was still indifferent of him. and His family if I called, Will talk to me before they Gave him the phone. In October on Halloween, I had came over to his house dressed up and I swear that boy fought it, but gave in like usual. lol. but thats why I loved him. my birthday was even better. I was now legal and we were no longer illegal with him being 22 and all....He met my friends. He met all my Family, and we all drank. He was supposed to spend the night but couldnt. he did ne xt week after we both got pierced. my lip, and his ear. both are gone. but I was so good to wake up next to him. He held me and woke me by covering me up. he didnt mean to wake me, but we had been sleeping on the floor and I slept lightly that night souly cuz of him. Our piercing were out the next 4 days. His lasted less the 24 hours. Mine lasted 4 days and amn it I wanted to keep it but my lip was so swollen due to poor piercing. I met more of his family on thanksgiving and even more on Christmas. Yesterday was our 7 month anniversary. We celeibrated by doing what we do best. lol. I could say I love him, but I cant. I wouldnt be the right word. I cant even find the word in the thesurous. Love isnt enough. It doesnt even comprehend what I feel about him. And to say he loved me would deffinatly be an understatement. He said hed call back again in a couple hours, but I know it will be sooner. Im happy. And thats all that matters. My mom doesnt mind him, altho shes not to keen on the idea of him as a son in law, but he will be.... my aunt doesnt like him, but she doesnt like anyone. My grams, well, she doesnt count. Joey, Mary, and all my friends love him. And Im so glad that they do because they are the ones that REALLY matter most in the opinion range. well theres my update I guess in a nutshell. Im still the crazy old me, just a little more growed up. | 
